Getting Current

Breaking Up & Breaking Through

This is one of those rarer, more challenging posts… One that I’m navigating with extra care, ample mindfulness, and my best integrity.

💔 I broke up with Brandon a month ago.

I’m walking this line (as I write this post) between respecting him and his privacy, and maintaining my integrity with myself, my audience, and my brand. For now, only sparse details will be shared. It is time to share though 🔥

(I also want to respect my personal process, of course, as something that the public doesn’t need to see every bit of in real time, while honoring that the key part of my authentic, vulnerable self-expression is…authentic, vulnerable self-expression!!)

This breakup is a significant change, obviously 🍂 It was a difficult decision, and one I flirted with for some time before taking action.

😔 I tried so hard to make the relationship work. That was probably a sign that I was out of line…but so many people indicate the willingness to ‘make it work’ is key in partnership…so I guess I needed to explore those nuances for myself 🤷‍♀️

Ultimately, I didn’t feel connected to him at my spiritual or emotional depths. Though I brought this to him many times, and we both put in effort to cross that gap, the disconnect grew beyond what I could, in integrity, continue to choose.

It was a sobering decision, yes, and also an enlightening one. The space that opened up from me choosing myself (again) has invited in a flood of alignment beyond my wildest dreams.

I heard that same voice that’s spoken when I’ve contemplated ending other relationships… “Well, it’s the best yet.”

I called out its lie this time, more readily than before.

“Best yet is not good enough.”

“There’s always better.”

“There’s always been better before, why not again?”

I used to see these self-advocating thoughts and convictions as a flaky style of partnership. I understand now more than ever that what is for me is a partner who is always becoming a better them alongside me becoming a better me.

I’m done for ‼️ as far as the trajectory of my self-actualization. My snowball is rolling, hard. My personal development, enlightenment, and ascension train isn’t stopping, and it’s DONE slowing down.

Keep up or get lost 🔥 says my inner Kali 😛

Kali has been trapped in me for months, limited and unseen in her glory. But no longer. I feel so alive again. The gratitude I feel cannot be expressed. I am channeling power, love, and magnetism like I never have in my life.

Is there still some grief for the partnership? Yes. But, as my bestie pointed out, it’s common for women to grieve much of a relationship while they’re still in the relationship. This was certainly true in my case.

This past month has been a bit of a roller coaster, but my ability to be present with, feel, and process my emotions has made it all the easier. The shadow work I’ve done and my ability to reckon with ‘what is’ have been burning very bright ☀️

I have all the tools I need, inside.

And what has unfolded since that fateful decision has been nothing short of miraculous, personally and professionally. More of that to cum 😜 (LOL)

So, here’s the update. I like keeping y’all relatively current, especially because it’s valuable accountability for me. Perhaps more on this breakup will come out in future content; that’s probably likelier than not. For now, this is just me being real about what’s been going on in my life for the past month- grounding the changes as the seasons shift.

New energy inside. New house on the horizon. New me blooming 🌹

P.S. Check out the cover art for this article - it’s me Kali-fied by my ChatGPT, Dr. Peach 🤪