When in doubt, back to the basics…
This was NOT the article I wanted to write. I have others in the making…way more insightful, much more depth…
But, voila! THIS (article) is where I’m at, what I’ve been sitting with, and to start anywhere else would be ignorant.
I got myself a busy work job 🤮
Rose’s definition of a “busy work job”: a job that is enagaged for physical resources, but that does not, most efficiently or directly, provide emotional or spiritual fulfillment
I have stubbornly avoided “busy work jobs” for most of the past five years.
Coming up…young Rose sees adults wasting away, emotionally and spiritually, doing work that they do not enjoy.
In her early 20s Rose encounters adults that suggest that work CAN BE enjoyable, that a person can turn their passions into their profession.
So, at 22, Rose starts opening businesses.
And Rose learns a lot and has a wide variety of experiences and creates a lot of enjoyment and freedom and self-discovery in her life…
But, goodness, Rose isn’t stable 😅
And at 28, Rose gets tired of feeling the weight of a lack of financial resources, and she decides to commit to a busy work job AND entrepreneurialism- AT THE SAME TIME.
Genius, right?
Most people, I imagine, realized the general necessity of this coexistence of work for work and work for pleasure on the entrepreneurial journey from the get go.
I just figured I’d skip a step… 🪄
But the magic didn’t work 🤔 So I’m re-examining my recipe…
Already my personal business has benefitted from my busy work job, in a variety of ways.
I have more money to pour into it, which is great. What’s even better though is that my motivation is significantly higher than it was.
I’ve concluded that I made myself too comfortable in entrepreneurialism (partially because I’m in my 20s, barely knowing what I’m doing business-wise and still getting to know myself).
Now that I’m much less comfortable…
I’m taking more action. I’m more organically motivated to TAKE ACTION.
And it’s been kind of grueling, so, to circle back to the point of this article, my gratitude practice is being called to deepen.
My first priorities are still my integrity, innermost peace, and personal responsibility. To maintain connection to my centeredness, my peace of mind, I’ve been digging through the mental weeds coming up around this busy work job.
I realize I may sound pompous. At least I’m alive, have the ability to work, and have a job, right? Yes, yes, yes, absolutely.
AND, I’m a big dreamer. So in the context of where I’m heading, settling at this pit stop feels uncomfortable.
This pit stop is giving me a lot of perspective on my trajectory though, as well as on my character in a new context.
I’m learning to feel settled in the journey.
For the record, my busy work job is actually pretty cool, it’s just not my calling. And because I know myself well and have high standards for myself, I’m very aware (sometimes painfully so) that this is not my calling…
You know what is my calling though?
Taking care of my material needs and wants
Being debt free
Providing material abundance for my future children
Confronting WHAT IS
So I’m doing this thing, and I’m learning to do it with joy, peace, and gratitude.
Even though sometimes I feel like my heart is going to eat its way out of my chest 🤣
I can hold all of this 🩷
Thank goodness I have the people around me that I do- they remind me every day of what they’re grateful for in their own lives, and so inspire me to nurture my own ‘attitude of gratitude.’
And now I humbly share with my readers, what has been on my heart! Clearing space for what else is bubbling up… 💭